Today's the day!

Ok, wow putting all of this out there is a little bit scary. I'm on my way to a healthier me. I have said this many of times, but this time its for real. I'm ready to not be self conscience, i ready to be happy with the way i look, I'm ready to be happy about myself! I get so depressed about my weight and the way that i look. My husband and I got married a little over a year ago and would like to start a family. I want to have a healthy pregnancy and be a healthy and active parent. I'm about 100 lbs over weight. I weighed myself on Saturday and i was 246. I want to be 150, heck I'd be happy with 175 at this point. I am not an inactive person by any means. I go to the gym 3 times a week and walk on the days that I'm not at the gym. I'm doing the breast cancer 3 day in October so I'm trying to get in better shape for that. My husband has taught me some things using kettle bells. I love it! He just taught me snatches over the weekend, man are they addictive! I have never gotten such a great workout in a short amount of time as i do with them. I'm looking into getting some of my own so that i can use them on my off days from the gym just to keep in the swing of things. I"m not great at putting exercises together to form a workout for the day. I hate bothering my husband all the time also. Any suggestions would be helpful. I don't have a lot of extra income right now and searching the Internet only gets me so far. It be great to have some responses from real people who do this now. This is going to be a long journey and I'm glad now that i have somewhere to post my thoughts, ideas, emotions, food and exercise :) Wish me luck, because I'm certainly going to need it.